Group Therapy: Different Thoughts, Different Paths, And The Man Who Hasn’t Given Up On Me…. Well Ever.

August 25th, 2021 Yesterday I woke up and got myself ready for therapy. It started out how it always does. You’re in groups with such small breaks. So many emotions come out throughout each day and yes it may be draining at some points, but it is it worth it. Getting those feelings out, saying them out loud, by talking about different topics with others who have their own struggles too… It helps me for some reason when I listen to others talk in our group because I see other sides of mental health, different situations, similar situations, how othersContinue reading “Group Therapy: Different Thoughts, Different Paths, And The Man Who Hasn’t Given Up On Me…. Well Ever.”

The Apology We Will Never Get – And That’s OKAY – One Love Is Better Than None

Having a falling out with somebody you love is hard to process. As someone who has went through actually more than one situation with a loved one, I completely understand now how challenging it is to put back together. And sometimes, it doesn’t get fixed. It just doesn’t work out the way you wished. Between the past 2-4 years, I have struggled understanding the actions of others more than ever. In the past, I haven’t exactly made the best decisions and my life has been in such a negative direction. I self medicated throughout my entire 20’s and have dealtContinue reading “The Apology We Will Never Get – And That’s OKAY – One Love Is Better Than None”

NINA BEAR – She Saves My Life Every Day

For me, Nina is the best support I could have (along with her brother Bleaker and sister Lyla). She is a Pitt Terrier and she loves to love. My dog came to me by complete surprise and I just went with it. This was brand new. She needed help. I’ve never been a dog mom. I can’t even keep a plant alive.. and I was so nervous because I had no idea how to take care of myself never mind a dog! This dog though, she came into my life around 4.5-5 years old. She came with love and kindnessContinue reading “NINA BEAR – She Saves My Life Every Day”

Give Social Media a Break and Work To Learn and Love Your Qualities as Much as Those Who Love You Do.

Have you ever been asked your best qualities and what others love about you? I have. And I’ve always found it difficult to answer when it comes to speaking about myself. So many of us find the good in others so much easier than our own selves. Why is that? This can be such an important topic for depression. I can reminisce back to so much good I’ve done but the bad always outweighs and erases any chance of me actually thinking I deserve to treat myself like a decent human being. I have had such a hard time givingContinue reading “Give Social Media a Break and Work To Learn and Love Your Qualities as Much as Those Who Love You Do.”

GROUP: My First Day And The Unfortunate Reminders It Brought Up

I know you’re probably wondering what the hell even is group? I still really don’t know myself. What I do know is that it is an outpatient intense therapy program with other attendees and also 2 weekly days of individual therapy sessions which are about an hour each. You speak about endless topics and learn ways of coping and bettering your life. The clinician I will be with is the same who completed my Assessment. That is a score right there because if you read my last post, you’ll know I felt a connection with her.  Yesterday I was havingContinue reading “GROUP: My First Day And The Unfortunate Reminders It Brought Up”

The Assessment

An Assessment is an hour+ process you and a clinician go through together which pretty much is a conversation about everything in your life. Your family, your loved ones, your hobbies, your mental health challenges, medications, triggers, your past and current trauma, you talk about it all. Talking about trauma has always been really hard for me. I put myself down constantly. I blame myself for a lot in my past and it has always made me blame myself for e v e r y t h i n g. Don’t get me wrong, I have not done everything rightContinue reading “The Assessment”

My Current State

My Current State It is 4PM and my brain is wiped. I am on yet another journey. This one has been long and heavy so far. I have so many emotions and they don’t all meet in the middle smoothly at all. Let me just go back a bit and tell you about the drama in my life. I call that drama bipolar disorder. And it is severely altering my day to day life.  I have struggled to be consistently reliable to a job position for years. The outcome is always a layoff. If not that, it is me franticallyContinue reading “My Current State”